I knew I wanted to take a month off drinking.
But not this month.
There was that birthday, hen night, wedding, party…
There was always SOMETHING.
Something that I couldn’t possibly go to without drinking.
I wasn’t dependent though.
I didn’t drink every day, or at home, or on my own.
I was FINE.
I just couldn’t face socialising without a drink.
Oh.
Maybe that is dependence too?
Realising that was key to my decision to take a break from drinking and find out if I really was dependent.
And you know what?
I realised pretty quickly that I wasn’t.
I could socialise fine sober, I was just more picky about how I socialised.